Grow Your Purpose

With Leah Zubik

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.”

-ee cummings

For years, I let life just happen to me. I allowed everything around me to set the pace and set the bar, and over time it carved out a version of who I am. Then life became all about keeping up with that version. Outwardly things looked fine, but inwardly I knew my personal foundation was not secure enough to uphold the life I was building on it.

I had a lot of secret doubts about my capabilities.  

Fear of failure, insecurity, image, and shame were some of the silent forces behind a lot of life decisions I made. It was easier to chase the heels of someone who had done the hard work than to inevitably make a mess of things on my own through trial and error. Why couldn't I just be in the right place at the right time and land my dream job or stumble across my soulmate?  After all, life is short and I wanted to get it right the first time. I wanted Plan ‘A’ for my life to unfold without any glitches.

For as long as I can remember I have been fascinated by the concept of purpose. I always felt like I was meant to do something specific and that if someday I could figure out what that was, I would be fulfilled and my life would have meaning. I had a bad habit of telling myself this while I set out on the long road in search for short cuts. I thought I could bypass mistakes and future regrets by calculating what success and failure looked like in others’ lives. I thought I could start from the end and do what I was meant to do before ever spending time becoming who I was meant to be.

Little did I know that this ‘life of purpose’ I always craved would entail getting my hands dirty, facing my fears one by one, and carefully dismantling the protective measures I took to uphold my image and escape pain. Some of my worst fears came true, and I am alive and well today, to tell you about it.

You see, something happened to bridge me from that passive mindset into moving forward in taking ownership of my life and choices, big and small. And when I say “something happened” I am not referring to my old wish for 'being in the right place at the right time’ kind of thing. The thing that happened, is still happening. I still partake in it. Nowadays, I refer to this process as BLOOM.

 
 

BLOOM is Intentional Quiet Time, a practice developed from my personal experience with years of counseling and self development. It is drawn from the concept that we greatly benefit from: “Time + Space + Permission to Dream.”

  • Time~ uninterrupted and set aside in a safe, inviting atmosphere.

  • Space~ to freely air out your thoughts on paper using a thought-sorting method that encourages observing thought patterns with curiosity- not judgement.

  • Permission to Dream~ connecting the dots of your unique story through collaboration; identifying your core purpose and ways to express it through your relationships, work, and hobbies.

BLOOM is a practical way to initiate a shift from feeling like a bystander in your own life, to carving out a meaningful path. It is one of the few times and places where you just show up and do not have to be ‘on’. You do not have to mentally absorb any material. There are no benchmarks to compare yourself to, or people to take care of, or impress. Just show up. Allow the process to speak for itself, and see what you find!